I feel that I have been soaring as God clearly leads me in His will. He has called me to pastor a church in Chapel Hill, NC. I am excited but at the same time very afraid. What I am afraid of is failure. And without the Lord's direct intervention I will fail! So I am totally depending on Him.
I am convinced that Christ is in this new call in my ministry and that "He who has begun a good work in me will complete it". The work that He does in and through me will be great--of that I have no doubts. I do fear that I will do some things that He doesn't want me to do and that I will also do some things He wants but I will do them in my own strength. I am reminded, however, of Proverbs 14:4 which says, "Where no oxen are the manger is clean, but much increase comes by the strength of the ox." In the coming months I will probably make plenty of mistakes. But there will also be times when our church sees Jesus do amazing things! Any ministry is like that. The one who gets into the action and seeks to be used by God will, at times, make a mess of it. But there will be moments of great glory as the Holy Spirit moves and performs many signs and wonders.
So, if I am an eagle, I will still have some soaring to do. But, right now, I have come down to earth and I am facing the possibility of getting dirty. For if I am an eagle, I am also an ox. I am here and I am just plugging along hoping God will clean up my mess, and make something great of those efforts of mine that are done according to His will and in His power.